living for me

Bummer of a weekend

For those that do not know, this weekend was my birthday. I am a generally excitable person, but you wouldn't have been able to tell by this weekend.

I have grown up always believing that birthdays were your special day. Everyone around you should put forth an effort to make you feel special. Well, I am not speaking to my mom or brother, so that was out, A lot of my friends, don't really live close and have their own lives and kids to take care of, so that left my husband.

We agreed that both of our birthday present money will be combined (his birthday is in June) and we will purchase a new bedroom set sometime soon. So I wasn't really expecting a present. But a card, or a cake? Is that too much trouble to ask?

We did go out to dinner. I've been swamped with schoolwork, and while I wanted to try to do flat twists in my hair the night before, I just didn't have the time. That day I just showered, fluffed out my afro, and clipped a flower to my headband as usual. I didn't even have time to put makeup on because we were running late for our reservation.

Fogo De Chao is the business people! If you haven't tried it, and you aren't vegan, please go! If you are vegan, it is more than likely your own personal hell, so I advise you stay away. It is pricey, so it is a special type thing. Jeff and I didn't even have a bottle of wine, and our bill was $100.

I just feel, empty inside. I didn't get a card, and though plenty of people wished me happy birthday on Facebook  , I just feel like that is a quick generic thing that you don't have to put any thought into.

I decided to pamper myself yesterday since  no one else was going to do it. I went and got a manicure and pedicure (first time in a LOOOONG time), and I got my eyebrows arched. I keep my nails really short because I work with a computer constantly, but they are frequently jagged and uneven, so this was nice. My poor toes though.. they were scary. I gave the woman a really good tip after she got done working with them. I haven't been to get my eyebrows arched in a while. I normally get them threaded when I do get them done because it is inexpensive. However, it is really painful for me, especially when they get to the end of the eyebrow for some reason. I feel like I am going to throw up from the pain. After they get done and show me, the hairless area is red and swollen. It goes down after a while, but I am always just dreading getting them done. Waxing is usually 10 dollars more than what I pay to get them threaded. However, the place that did them yesterday charges just the same as a threading, and they use wax. I will be going back to them perminately. The woman that did them was so cute, she was tiny and pregnant and is due in like 2 weeks.

After I got that done, I took a good look in the mirror at home. I realized that I have been depending on people to make me happy for so long, I forgot how to make myself happy. No more of that. I have decided to do what I need to do to make myself happy as long as it doesn't hurt anyone in the process.

Before I go, I wanted to share a song again with you guys. I am thinking of doing song of the week. It will force me to look at new music and maybe find some things I normally wouldn't listen to. The song of this week is "Valerie" By Mark Ronson and Amy Winehouse. I originally heard the song on Glee, and wanted to hear the orginal. I do enjoy the original more.

You can see the video for it here:

Yeah, I have no clue about the rap at the beginning. Kind of random, but whatever.